I Feared Waking Up.

Written in May 2020. Outfit worn on September 9th, 2020.
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Through the entirety of almost 5 years together, every time i looked at him or heard him laugh,

i felt like i was dreaming.

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My fear was waking up, not breaking up.

Never did i imagine being apart from him.

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…but i guess this is the better scenario.

Better to break up than to wake up.

He’s still in my life. He exists.
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The memories are real.
And i’m a different person than i was before we met.
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It may feel nightmarish and hurt like hell… But at least the good parts weren’t a dream.
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Life is really hard right now.
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But my life wouldn’t be as beautiful without him having existed in it.
I would gladly relive all the pain if i could relive all the bliss, too.
The nightmares are worth it for the dream.
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“It Isn’t Love If It’s Selfish” – An Outfit Representing Lost Love and Vulnerability

“It Isn’t Love If It’s Selfish” – An Outfit Representing Lost Love and Vulnerability

For so long, i’ve told myself: “It isn’t love if it’s selfish”.

There’s still nothing in me that has stopped believing that’s true.

Desire paired with selfishness is only possessiveness and in action, it’s only consumption.

It’s cruel and it enslaves. It suffocates. It disregards the needs, wants, and desires of another. It inflicts pain to all involved.

But what makes something selfish, anyway?
I’m not sure i actually know….. Is everything i want automatically selfish in my mind?… everything i think i can’t have?

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